A friend told me that she has this weird mixed feelings on her relationship. At that moment, I thought mine was fine and good and in some people's vision, it's great. Somehow, I realize it is not that case after all. I can give advise to her but what about myself? I actually didn't think about how to solve my own problem. When I did, it's a little too late. And everything became a habit. Disappointment. 

...You Found Me

Semester Break!!!!
I love this semester break!!!
First, I have 2 months off before class starting again!
Second, I had an Awh-Some Trip with my college mates!!! Went to Ipoh, Penang and Langkawi for 5 days!!! I think it's the BEST trip I ever had!!!!Wish I could stay longer..
Third, my sweet babe is coming home!! =) This is what i'm looking forward throughout the whole year.

I was wondering, am I a different person now compare to then? Did I change?
I hope =)
well! plans coming up..Is genting trip!!! making cheese tarts!!! exercise my fats away!! yum cha session with brudders and friends! and surprise plan for my sweet babe..

Are you alright?
:) Just complaining

I think I've just lost myself again as I was trying to find me back.
I'm fighting so hard. I wanted the better. I wanted change.
Do I even have the time to see it or I have to adapt to another situation?

I ask for God. I don't know if I should believe. Is God only some creation from people to give comfort and strength but God didn't appear or exist?
I really filled with doubts. questions. with no answers given.
Faith. What is it again? Belief. What about that?
It's hard to hold on these two abstract-object. but I did. I tried to hang on but I wont stop trying.
Don't close the only door in my dark room.

i + (u)=?
I've seen this quite sometime ago, but now when it came across my mind it seems to mean nothing.
This feeling, is like what I had for last few days.
I was so upset, so worried. I wasn't complete conscious when I am suppose to be.
My world falling apart, no, my dream world falling apart. Hit so hard back into reality.
After hoping for so long, yearning for what I want, I had just realized not everything will go your way even if you wished everyday each single tick of the second-hand.
But soon, it has wake me too from my broken dreams that I could use another angle of perspective to view it, at least to convince myself not to give up on hope. Or maybe it's just Sociology theoretical paradigm that I'm using.


Life, is all about taking the first step. Are you brave enough to take that step? Are you ready for its consequences? 
I might look brave enough to everyone, but I'm not as what you think.
I'm not what I think too.